I think this has been what gives me the strength to do what is needed, looking at the Jeskai like I am not really a part of them. Even though I am now their khan, I still felt like an outsider-like the young girl always fumbling her words-only now I don't show it. I had fought the clans in battle and knew their tactics. Over the next few years, my counsel was sought out by many regarding these matters, until the elders saw to appoint me the khan of the Jeskai. I saw that Tarkir was a divided and brutal place, and took this perspective back to my people. I was able to learn about the other clans through observation and unfortunate events, where I was forced to fight and kill rival clan members for my own survival. When I was old enough and passed all the physical and mental tests, I undertook the Way of the Wandering Warrior. I did enjoy sparring with those who had taunted me, easily humiliating them in combat as they had humiliated me with their words. I impressed my teachers, but I still felt like an outsider. Studying was a way to escape my anxiety and I eagerly embraced history and philosophy, memorizing all I could about Jeskai teachings. I then went over those failed interactions in my mind, and I found the imaginary worlds more forgiving. I never knew what to say, often causing me to blunder, and I was embarrassed in front of my teachers and classmates. It was so taxing interacting with others. It was as though my mind was always five steps ahead of my mouth. I found solace in my own mind and often had difficulty knowing how to talk to others.
I dreamt of fantastical worlds and used the scrolls given for lessons to draw them, incurring the wrath of my elders. I always lived in my head, but not in the way the instructors wished.
Quiet Contemplation | Art by Magali VilleneuveĪs a young girl, I had the same "problem," as my teachers called it. I would pretend I was at peace, as I knew other Jeskai did, although I made sure not to betray my quiet contemplation. Others would stop this, but I let it run. And it's not that I can't show them it's that I'm not supposed to. Just because I don't show emotions doesn't mean I don't have them. But just because I look quiet and serene doesn't mean I am. To the hundred monks who meditated in the plaza with me, I was motionless, meditating as I always did. I haven't had this problem while meditating since I was a student. She seeks to bring peace to the clan, and studies Tarkir's history for the answer. Life on Tarkir is difficult, and it takes its toll on Narset as it does on everyone else-she just has practice with hiding it. More about the Jeskai can be found in Part 1 of the Planeswalker's Guide to Khans of Tarkir. Although younger than the other Jeskai Elders, she leads her people against the other clans.
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